Monday, May 14, 2012

THINGS I'M AFRAID TO TELL YOU...



If you follow the blogosphere, you may know that many bloggers have been posting "Things I'm Afraid To Tell You" posts telling their audience some personal and difficult things they deal with and are scared to talk about.  I originally found this post on Style and Pepper's blog, but it originated on Make Under My Life.  Then, Creature Comforts created a movement out of it, and now there is a wide range of bloggers expressing their difficulties and challenges in life.

I think it is important to be real about everything.  There's no point in being fake or putting on a front just to impress someone.  And I would like to make it clear, that that's not the point of my blog.  The reason I have my fashion blog is not to impress my (small) audience, but because I enjoy it and want to share my passion and discoveries with others.

Anywho, here are a couple things that I am not usually that open about with people, especially people I don't know.


  • I suffer from anxiety and depression.  I was diagnosed in my sophomore year of high school (three years ago) and have been on medication since then.  It wasn't that big of a surprise because it runs in my family.  Both of my parents struggle with it, as well as several extended family members.  My closest aunt (Pat Todd) took her own life last May because she was over struggling and having her husband who is a pastor in North Carolina take care of her.  Since then, my mom has really been keeping an eye on me to make sure I don't do the same.  BUT, I would NEVER do that to her.  I saw what it did to her with my aunt and I would never be able to put my mom through that pain again.  On the positive note, I have been doing well in the past few months.  I have been leaning on God as my strength and He is my only source of joy.
  • I'm a broke college student, and I'm not proud of it.  I get paid every other Friday, and my paycheck seems to disappear within a few days each time.  I am horrible at saving money, and honestly can't control myself.  Being that I am almost constantly surrounded by fashion with my job and social media, I am always wanting to stay on top of the current trends, and wear them as well.  That being said, I can not wait until I have a career and make more money!  Hopefully then I'll have mastered the art of saving money.
  • I am addicted to social media.  Twitter, Facebook (not as much anymore), blogging, and especially INSTAGRAM (oh my gosh, Instagram...).  I have an iPhone and laptop which make accessing the internet super easy.  I check Instagram and Twitter constantly, and can never miss a post.  It's bad.  I am in a college group at my church called Rooted, and we had a prayer experience last Thursday.  In order to prepare for it, we were supposed to fast from something that consumes us, and I decided to fast from technology.  It was very difficult, but it helped greatly that I had work in the morning.  It was amazing to take a break from technology and social media.  I felt relaxed, for once.  I should definitely do it more often.
Well, there you go.  Those are three things I have only shared with my closest friends, and now all of you.  I am so thankful that I have you guys to share my life with, and I hope I was able to communicate to at least one person that you are not alone in this crazy world.  If you look around, there are so many people that are struggling with the same things as you.

"I'd definitely recommend that you to take a peek at the posts of the other bloggers participating in this most recent round (listed below), and if you'd like to join in the movement, feel free to share your own "scary bits" here in the comments."

List of participating bloggers for Wave No.2
Cassie: Coco + Kelley / Christine: Court & Hudson / Caitlin: Sacramento Street / Roxy: My Cup of Te / Crystal: Blog / Meg: MIMI+MEG / Ashlina: The Decorista / Katie: Modern Eve / Erin: Apartment 34 / Erica: Design Blahg / Victoria:Vmac & Cheese / Christine: Miles to Style / Franki: Life in a Venti Cup  / Sue: The Zhush / Erika: Radiant Republic / Gabrielle: Savvy Home / Monika: The Doctor's Closet / Naomi: Design Manifest /Tobe: Because It's Awesome/ Becca: {extra}ordinary wonders / Lynzy: Sparkling Footsteps / Hitha: Hitha On The Go / Sarah: Note To Self / Liz:So Much To Smile About / Sarah: Blogstar / Alissa: The Goods Design / Jessie: Style & Pepper / Erika: Small Shop Studio  / AV: Long Distance Loving / Maggie: Maggie Rose Blog / Nicole: The City Girl In Me / Priscilla: The Best Laid Plans / Jen: Concrete Jungle DC / Janelle: Food Fashion Fitness / Natalie: East Coast Chic

Here are the bloggers that participated in Ez's Wave No.1 of Things I'm Afraid To Tell You
Design for Mankind | Little Brown Pen | Beautiful Hello | Curating Style | Sweet Fine Day | The Jealous Curator |Happy Days | Sage & Berries | Really Handmade | Peck Life | Satsuma Press | Rena Tom | For the Easily Distracted | The Hemborg Wife | Vitamini Handmade | Courtney Khail Stationery and Design | Meg in Progress |Dando Photography Blog | Widdershins22 | Alison Citron | Pink Moon Daily | Just Pretty Things | From China Village |Tea with Me | The Darling Ewe | Not Your Average Ordinary | The Electric Typewriter | Elleby Design | Parsimonia {Secondhand With Style} | Life as an Artistpreneur | Hello Cupcake | Dellie | The A & B Stories | Pretty Little Things | Feistyelle | Nib & Zed | Well and Cheaply | I Ripple. I Dance. | Whitfield Awesome Blog | Foxtrot Press |Dry As Toast | The List of Now | Apple Blue | For the Love of | Four Flights of Fancy | Miss Modish | Snapshots & Secrets | Dirty Laundry | Bubby & Bean | Penelope's Press | Little Nostalgia | Vale Design | Pikaland |Fleurishing | Print Pretty | Vespa Tales | Hazel & Agnes | Amanda's Musings | Mo' Funk Designs | Ordinary Mommy | Camp 1899 | In Honor of Design | Liberty's Yarn | Love, Life & Pictures | Stacey Winters | Owl in the Rain | Living Life Creatively | Emma Elizabeth Clease | I Live in Vacouver Now | British Cream Tea

5 comments :

  1. Aw, we love this!!!! We're more than understand the 'broke college student' thing. Such an awesome post!!!!

    ox from NYC!
    davie+erica

    LPFashionPhilosophy

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  2. Your blog was wonderful, my daughter is also in fashion ( third year marketing major) I look forward to showing her your site. Love your raw honesty and may all your dreams come true.
    Best wishes
    susie

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  3. Wow. I feel like we are the same person! I also struggle with depression and starting taking depression pills my sophomore year of high school. It also runs in my family. And I am so so ecstatic that you are a Christian too! God is what has gotten me through pretty much everything in my life. I would be a total mess without him. And I know what you mean with social media. My mom yells at me all the time because she says she can never enjoy a meal with me because I am always on my phone. It is sad really. We have created technology to become closer to the outside world, but in turn, have secluded those who are closest to us.

    Thank you for your honesty and I look forward to getting to know you more!
    God Bless!xox

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    1. I know! When I was reading your post I was thinking the same thing! So crazy :) If you're ever in the LA/OC area, we should get together!

      XO

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